miss you

one new me

2006-09-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

hi for those who fall upon this blog. It's been sometime since i blogged. In fact, this is the longest time since i've blogged. Well, lots of things happened and i've kinda forgotten about this place. Not forgotten, just slipped through my mind.

There's something which i don't wish to type it here, maybe my personal blog for i think it's not nice to share with others. Haha sorry for those who don't know it, some of them know about it and some of them need some update haha. For the rest, i'm still smiling like i used to be. =)

Actually for these few weeks, i kinda lost contact with alot of people around me. Ah well, looks like i will say it.

I've not feeling well for these few weeks. Yah, hope you've no question in your mind after this.

Rest that what i need, sometimes i'm also tired to use the computer. . .

a short entry. i'm done here.

peaceout

oh yah, all my friends out there.

i cherish every moment i have with you.
i thank you for the moment i popped in your mind.
i'm sorry for not contacting you.
i'm sorry for not telling you certain things.
i'll be back
so,
forget me not

haha
i love gays
guys
gays
wadever

haha

haha

2006-08-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

it's been sometime since i blogged here, i was thinking if anyone bothers to read my blog now. Well, it's not that i'm lazy to blog and stuff but i'm just don't want to blog and if i blog, most of the entires will be found in my personal one. No worries for i decided not to post so many time on my personal. But that does not mean that i will post often here. But i will post some of my personal contents here, if possible.

for all this times, i've been learning new things and i realised something. I, somehow gave my friends a wrong impression of me. Ok, not wrong but they failed to see another side of me and seriously, i've yet to find a reason why they should know the other side of me. But still i've to let them know that i'm not always smiling and happy-go-lucky dude you see on the street everyday.

People change, so am i. And this is how i think now. If there's one soul who thinks that this is related to "Maturity". Maybe it is, i don't know why but i tend to see this world differently now, of course the people.

Alright, now, i'm drinking alcohol and i'm feeling a little bit light headed now, so i should stop here and will NOT resume anymore for i don't think anyone bothers to read my senseless entry.

Sometimes this world sucks so much that i can't wait to end my life
But sometimes, it's so beautiful, so beautiful that you hope itime will stop you allow yourself to feel such sweet melody. . .

"The Lake House"

such nice movie

peaceout

never more

2006-07-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

finally, done with sip.

i'm sure everyone has this feeling,

when you first enter the company for attachment, you always urge for the 3 months to end as soon as possible, can't wait to get out of that place. hoping that you will go back to tp and rather do projects and assigment. . . but once it's over, you hope that you can stay in that company awhile longer, hoping that you will never leave your colleagues.

alright, not everyone for some of them seriously thinks their attachment were really fucked up.
mine was exceptional. haha.

the last night of attachment was crazy, 7.7.06

my shi fu/ master treated dixon, Kc and me seoul garden at bugis,
after that wanna go pub or club but i had my bag along with me. With such a burden, i decided to go home and freshen up myself and went back to meet my colleagues as well as my guys. Decided to go to one place,

"Zouk"

informed the guys, reach the place, found out that we were only allow to go in at 1030pm. So we waiting for my guys.

10:30pm, my guys still not reached(sound gay, they're gerald,keat,clement,vic,yao), so i asked my colleagues to go in 1st.

waiting for 45mins, one girl approached me and asked for my ic, i refused she walked away. dressed up like some mature slut, fuckable! lol. found out that the guys not gonna come, kinda pissed, but well, it's ok. i understand. they really couldn't get a cab.

went in to meet up with the guys,

11:20pm,
dance floor = 4 girls

12am: 7girls, 10 guys trying to flirt, 6 failed. hopless.

1230, entered the dance floor,

shaked some ass with some unknown girls, unexpectedly, some guys zzzz.....

drink dance drink

went home at 2.30am. lol....

4am, knock out in bed zzzzzz.....

and it's over, i miss my colleagues. . . .

peaceout

wisdom thoughts

2006-07-02T17:10:00.000+08:00

does anyone still remember this place?

nevertheless, let me type something here

england lose,
same goes to argentina

fuck refrees, seriously, so what if it's world cup?

humans react the same even if things changed or things are different,

doesn't mean if it's world cup, players can't express that unhappiness or anger!
just a simple push as it's a red card to rooney, like wtf?!

call me bias or what i don't care,
but i really felt that

THIS YEAR WORLD CUP,

ALL REFREES AND LINESMEN SUCK!

SUCK BIG TIME!

expect for one,
our beloved singapore refree.

when it's suppose to be a penalty, the refree said no,
when it's suppose to be booked, the refree said carry on.

urgh, so what if the host is Germany? hello, fair game play?
tainted hearts, everyone

4 weeks left

2006-06-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

hell yah guys, bloody 4 weeks left for sip! seriously for the last 4 weeks, sip was great. Yes i said great 'cause i've colleagues who are around the same age as me

one 25, one 24, one 21, one 20, and one father and mothers haha.

the father is the one i'm working with.

ok 25 name is kc
24(i think) is melvin
21 is DICKson
20 is crazy joyce
father is maslam
mother is adeline, jenny and maram

closer to that dick though, more shit to talk about.

ok here comes the crazy part, joyce is the craziest girl i ever met, i tell you, her characters can rock bottom you girls! haha. She's so god damn interesting to talk to. most guys will like her. Hehe.

till last week, shit happens when my supervisor got informed by one of my colleague for talking from 8am to 830am

WHICH IS FUCKING WRONG!

and i FUCKING HATE BACK STABBERS!

read this sonuvabitches and judge,

8am reached lab,
was doing my log book while dick,kc,joyce were outside talking.
820am, was sick of writing my book so i stopped and joined them and relax abit for 5mins.
830am, my most respectable colleague, maslan somehow warned and "scolded" us that we kept on taking and should start working soon.
11-12am, my supervisor was found in the lab and he, maslan, maran were taking about the previous attachment student, so obviously i was related.

next day,
was doing my log book again till 820am.
found out that my supervisor was in the lab very early this time(he suppose to be in another lab), so i passed him my log to sign,

he told me, "i'm going to give you a very bad comment eh/"
i said, "huh? why? for what?"
he said, " just give me the book"

so be it, i gave him and resume my work.
was fucking pissed for why he never tell me what i've done wrong and assume things himself.

asked maslan what happened, he said cos we talked from 8-830am and didn't work.

for fuck sake? i was in the room doing my log book and chatted with them for 5mins and i was get involved in it? oh fucking great!

fuck you assumption-nist.

i was so god damn unlucky alright and screw that back stabber, i know who is that person but it's not comfirm and i dun mind assume that person is the one who informed my boss.

i decided to apologise to him for my "wrong doing"
luckily, he forgived me and didn't write any shit down in my log.
while i was doing my fucking apologising speech, my mind was thinking,
"where the fuck i've done wrong?"

no choice, for the sake of my sip, shit happens and i've to endure it.

i mean i did finish my work well and i'm quite hardworking at work. even maslan sad that too. oh yah, i was heard i was gonna fail this sip and he helped me talked to my boss. yah not gonna fail any shit hahal.

my style of workin',
let me slack for awhile at the beginning and i'd start my engine till 1230pm have lunch and work again till i finished my work again and i like to workfast, finish then rest.

too bad, my style wasn't being acceptable in f & n, how ignorant.

oh yah, i'm going back to another QC lab where i started working for sip, this lab suck alright! have to see my boss so god damn often. zzzz.
mean i'm fucking back to do on-line production with loud noises,
i hope i can suffer from motion sickness again and i can go back to central lab haha.
just joking.
if he has been urging to find mistakes in me with proof, work harder and leave me alone
for i will prevail and leave this company for good.

shit, i've to work with a malaysian cool guy from tomorrow onwards, hope he's like dickson who i can crap with. too bad he doesn't looks like one to me.

urgh, i want to go back to central lab.

fuck you man!

peaceout

new desktop

2006-05-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

after months MONTHS of messy desktop, i finally change!

have a nice look,

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/kalas/wallpaper.jpg

another one,

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/kalas/wallpaper2.jpg

i love abstract, love them.

i changed from some seaweed name into "a.D"

"a.D" is just one of my cyber nick, it's nothing special. Looks unique and cool.

How is it?

peaceout

grown up

2006-05-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

i understand certain things which the bigger ones once told me before.

this more is seriously more sick than i used to think, more complicated you can call it.

"Now than you know?"

Fuck you if you say this, you're not that great after all bloody homo-sapien.

Don't ever fuck with me now, or i'll fuck you back real hard, i swear.

When the time comes, it will.

Just read, don't think.
Just an mindless entry from me.

peaceout

my new life

2006-05-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

work, eat sleep, outing,

the basics of life i've acquired.

fuck certain adults at times.

peaceout

so long so long

2006-05-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time.

main reason: work

which obviously lead to tiredness, then plain laziness even typing keyboards.

Hate to say this, but i'm so bloody used to my work then somehow i even think about my job during weekends. So wtf. Haha.

Also, my working life is getting better, mainly 'cause i've change my working place. Well, i'm still in QC though, just that i've shifted into the main QC central lab from the boring QC lab which only work in condense milk.

lets see, what good about central lab, more colleagues to crap, easier things to do like protein tests fats tests and stuff which will simply kill my time perfectly well.

Free ice creams everyday plus milk.

But, i've to meet my boss everyday, a naggy one. Her name is Adeline.

Seriously, this is world lacking of cristian names? Haha. I mean i'm always looking forward to hear some unique english name but i failed.

Well, i've got one adeline, one Kenny, one Joyce, one Andy and one Dickson.
ok i seldom come across dickson, but adeline kenny joyce hmmm... i've got no hard time remembering their names. Andy too yah haha.

I hope i'll get fat though, having drink chcolate milk and concuming ice cream almost everyday. I'll be glad to know that i've gain some pounds. Muscles will be nice too. =)

Been to school yesterday to exercise. I fucking miss that place man. Going to embarasses myself here. Alright, i suppose to meet yao at the sch lib level 2. Instead i entered the building, climbed the stair case and up i went to level 3, realizing that i was at lvl 3 as hafiz told me, i went down to lvl 2 again. Like wtf, i even forgotten that level 1 is level "2", get wad i mean?

Also, don't ask me why, but i'm kinda lost interest in school babes, NOT that i'm gay but i prefer office ladies compare to pinkish, rebonded hair babes with at least 2 ear holes on both sides of their small lil' ears. Personal preferance i think. Well, what i'm saying here are just their looks alright?
Offical girls, pppttfff, get a life dude.

there's one thing my supervisor just turn me off.
You see, i passed my log book to him on wednesday morning and i assume that he would be done on friday! But i was so so wrong, when i asked him if he had done with my bloody yellow book, he said he hasn't read yet! So i told him that i'll ask from him next week. But NO! He returned them to me. Unsigned.
Alas, i've got 3 weeks(include this week) unsigned. How sweet.
yes i understand that these people are busy, but still , well, forget it haha.

i felt that i've change even since work.
this world is more messed up than i used to think before.
More people are so wasted than i thought.
More people should learn how to grow up.
More people should just exercise and improve their brain by just using them to think before they speak.

i'm done here.

peaceout

2nd week

2006-05-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

Opps, looks like broke my promise for blogging everyday haha,

but seriously, eveyday was the same!

well, not everyday, for example last monday, my superviosor assigned me and my colleagues to check the glueboard around the warehouse and rat baits around the entire company

ZZZ lol,

ok for the glue board, we got the hard time squezzing in between the cartons of food products,

what we found were only cockroaches and lizards, stucked, died! lol

but there's one which was hidden in one dark isolated corner which ONLY ME i can squeeze through, common sense, i went in and check it out.

at first, i saw something popping out. But the visibility wasn't that good, so to satisfy my curiousity, i went to take a closer look. And OH MY FUCKING GOD, a stench of unbearable small just irritated my nostrils, it's fuckin' stink! But still i can't determine what was bloody stuck in that board. So, i took out my phone and shone the light it.

Surprisingly, yet Un-surprisingly, i saw TWO, yes two decomposing rats haha, the size of my palm. Yucks, lol... sweet huh...

as for the rat baits, nothing special but the weather was against us, lol damn hot with our lab coat on.

Well, thats all, the rest of the days were the same, need not to explain anymore.

man how i love public holidays now...

yes 9 more weeks to go.

peaceout.

day.... i dunno

2006-04-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

do the same old thing

main thing.

230 end production = no need to QC

so i rot and slack... fold paper to fill lactose powder.

slept in toliet.

515 off work....

peaceout

day2 and day 3

2006-04-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

well for the past 2 days, i'm doing all the same thing actually...

1st shit. On line Qc checks, not online! but On---Line LoL....

wad i do.

1.Take 14cans, must be damn fast... i have to learn 1 hand take 6cans!
2. Weight each empty cans with lid
3.tell the operator that i'm putting the cans back
4.wait for the cans to drop out, must collect damn fast also if not will hinder the Operation rate. zzz
5. weight again
6.check canning room's tempt
7.take 2 samples
8.go back nua and do tests... not gonna explain. think its confidential wahahaha.

still got alot of tests la...

u know i very forgetful and careless, urgh... always miss a few steps... i think my colleagues buay tahan me soon, i damn guilty lor!

many malaysians there. so far see 3 malay guys in the entire company!

OH FOOD! only got one muslim store SWEET HUH!
but
FREE FLOW COFFEE AND TEA but not to forget CONDENSE MILK! whaaha

btw, i doing on condense milk production...

well, time sure pass fast... i'm getting used to it

espically i've to stand in the train from simei to clementi with my zen stuck to my ears.

done.. lazy to type...
i dun wanna count how many days left. like that time will pass faster....

peaceout

day 1

2006-04-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

SIP day 1

1 day nth much zzz... will blog everyday! for 84 entries! haha not gonna let my personal chase up zzzz

my ear gonna be spoil soon... those machines are driving my crazy... so big so noisy....

u know even i'm with ear plug, the sound is so deafening and YET there are some people who are MAD INSANE enough not to put in on... are they mad or wad or they just wanna get deaf?!

peaceout

SIP

2006-04-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

well, tomorrow will be the day.

SIP at clementi

3 more months to go

yucks

2006-04-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

fuck, i fuckin hate horoscope!

how can our life be written in it BEFORE WE ARE FUCKING BORN!

how can it be so true?

i do not want to believe it either.

i write my own life, no one does.

peaceout

urgh

2006-04-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

urgh!

how fucked can it be?
how chee bye can it be?

wah knn.

hey hey, miss my vulgarities?! haha...

i wanna be a baby....

peaceout

thank you

2006-04-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

hey long time no blog. Well for here Haha...

Well gonna write something here. . . . .

Yes, to the majority of the fuc.. i mean my friends who think that i don't fuckin' work. Haha, sorry to disappoint you this time. Cos i did work. For 1 week haha.

from 27th march, i worked alright?! Thanks to someone who took percious time to ask me to haha. Thank you for the free income LoL =)

well i worked in the new budget terminal as a slacker, surveryer, taxi counter and see viatnam ladies. from bloody 6am to 2pm. I had to wake my ass up at 3.45am.
Seriously, 1st day i don't sleep much cos you know my sleepin' time used to be around 3-4am? Like wtf? Haha, so that very night, i forced my self to sleep at 11pm but I CAN'T finally 2am i slept zzzz... rotting in the bed for 3hours WAS BORING!

Weee.. work work work. Expect to have lotsa people cause it's a new terminal but no. zzz....

normally the morning flight was around 10am? so 2hours before we had to survey the passengers. So around 8am. So 6am we reached there. Wad we do?

lets see... sleep, eat, shit, pee, tok cock, listen to my zen, sleep again, rot, tok cock, see girls. for 2 HOURS! haha...

after that work for few hours break go home zzz lol.. easy job

yah i'm done! thats my life for that week! Seriously those viatnam girls who come to SG have damn nice body figures! Sorry SG babes, but you are rock bottom when come to nice figures.

DAMN nice assets i must say, even my friends also agree. Too bad, they come SG to accompany men, u know u know. have sex, get a SG hubby, leech money, damn leechers lol.....

.

recently, i seldom game, no idea why. Just no interest to game anymore.

plus i slept early. Erm 1-230am? LOL... i woke up 1 hour earlier hehe...

yawnz... i don't work? i did! wahahaha.... maybe i'll post some pics in the next entry. Ming xuan said i looked like a faggort fuck it babe! hell i care LOL... joking

messed up entry.

wanna more details tell me, then i'll post more in the next entry

peaceout

me

2006-03-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

I shed my skin,

covering my eyes,

so that i can always forever,

remember your beautiful face,

forever,

feel your beautiful soul,

and feel the warmth you gave me.

Forever

I'm blind

tired

peaceout

msn pics

2006-03-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

well, i've got 3 pics for you people about msn 8.0

Here's the new version of msn.

Click me Baby!

well as you can see, they changed the layout, to me it's more or less the same la... nothing special just that i feel that it's abit brighter and more bloody icons which i HATE IT! i hate icons, make everything damn messy zzz...

Hope you notice the "Non-instant messaging contacts", i think they're those contacts which i deleted them. Oops. =( . If i do, i'm such a bad ass lol. I deleted 101 of them! Ouch ! LoL... I have no idea why windows add this in! i mean u deleted them cos you don't talk to them or find them irritating(hell ya) what for show us WHO we deleted. Ah well beta version. Lotsa stupid stuff.

ok, here's one which girls will love it. Erm, most girls i suppose. Erm... some girls i suppose LoL...

CLick me darlin

Now this is NEW! You can change msn skin. Ok la not new to me. Kinda zzzz.... pink pink pink. I don't know why but pink looks nice on my msn skin LoL... = x gonna change soon la
pinku shit....

Alright, next new feature.

zzz click me again

YOU CAN BLOODY SHARE FOLDER!!!! Omfg! Por... erm i mean erm... anime can be sent around! Woohoo!!!! This feature really rock yea! i love it.

ok no more pics lol.. nth new actually just... i think some of you guys got the invitation from windows or something... try it. =)

wonder when it will be offically out thou...

oh ya, wanna see my new desktop? always love to show you guys. see it if you want to.

Gua Gua
next
Hua Hua

how is it? Nice?

thats all

peaceout

msn 8.0

2006-03-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

OMFG~

Msn version 8.0 freakin roXor!

oh ya, no all can download yet hehe... it's still on beta version.

Screenshots will be up next entry.
Stay tune

peaceout

shit!

2006-03-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my.

decision decision decision.

UURGH!!!

WHOA!

2006-03-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

OMFG! Fort Minor roXor!!!! Well wonder wtf is it? it's the title of one album from one of the Linkin Park member. Fucking roXar yo! Thks to Yao Wei, now i fall in love with all the sound tracks. Yes i downloaded more haha.

Linkin park was one of my fav band even since sec sch. like "in the end" and of course my all time favourite "numb" gonna love them people even though they're old songs. But still THEY FUCKING ROXOR!

oh ya, there's this song i love in from fort minor calls "Where'd you go",
man i love the chorus,

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

aawww man! i love it! so missified. uuurgghh... ssweeettt I LOVE IT!

i wanna get drunk again can i?

peaceout

you never know

2006-03-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

hello blog, haven been messing around here for quite sometime. Well another blog too la, nth diff thou.

oh exams results out. Luckily pass every subjects and my GPA improved by 0.09 Lol... ah well still less than 2 anyway. I'm wasted, my life gonna be suck in the future. . . .
-

You know sometimes life is simpily just unpridictable and so What-The-Fuck? And so Oh-Now-I-Fucking-See-It!

Few minutes back, i was in the state of WTF, OMFG and OH! I SEE!

No matter how simple your life is, there's bound to have some complications lurking around it. FUck it. Why can't life be just beautiful for once?

It sucks when at one point of time, you're smiling CLAIMING that life i s s o b e a u t i f u l and s o l o v e d. Suddenly you started to feel your life is crumbling down and there's no fucking way to save your pathetic life. Pttff! That's really suck.

yes, someone used to said mind is a bad place to be. Ohyah, that's when you're seriously think that life suck and you refused to face it. Letting it overcomes you, you're a goner. Fuck you. i mean myself.

right now, i'm kinda emtional. so peaceout. it's not nice to write anything here when my mood starts to swing.

just another entry from me to myself, feel free to tag anything if you think that i'm so fucking wrong here and wanna let your ego runs wild .

peaceout

omfg

2006-02-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

gonna be another fucking entry...

10mins ago,

I WAS SO FUCKING PISSED OVER SOMETHING WHICH I SHOULDN'T EVEN GET ANY ANGRY AT ALL!

wah lau!!! FUCKING chee bye pissed ah! imagine all your god damn hard work just GONE like this in just merely 1-2sec?! fuck it. screw it.

if you're standing here right now, i am so gonna pull all your intestinal organs out, one by one, slowly... letting your warm blood ooz out and saw your fucking skull away revealing your fucking small pea brain. i'd squash it with my left feet and throw your fucking wasted body away and feed the wild dogs in africa.

fuck you! t('0't)

peaceout

urgh

2006-02-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

wah lau! things can fucking easily change my mood man...

at one point i'm feel so sad about one particular show, after that i feel so angry and pissed after someone told me certain things... so wtf man...

seriously, DOn't bother can anot ah?! seibei sian liaoz.. i dun care.. hate me ... HATE ME!

hate me today,
hate me tomorrow,
hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.

i'm tired

PEACEOUT!

over

2006-02-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

it's over.
exams are over...
last paper was the most sian 1/2 but i think i can pass la... but haiz dunno leh... heck... it's over.

well nothing to write here la... except for last night... i duno why i fucking can't sleep even though i was fuckin yawning away. kinda sick man... tired yet can't sleep. screw it.

think my health suck... was thinking about dying at 65. maybe now make it 55-60 la haha...

well, seriously nth to blog about my messed up life now =)

haha i just cleaned up my DESKTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love it now.

Click me la!

clean right... i love it man 2 icons nia so neat!

peaceout

=)

haha

2006-02-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

yah having my examination now.

total i've to take 3 papers.

2 down, 1 more to go...

Hows the paper?
Hmm... alright la... all i know is that i won't fail for the 1st 2 though i don't know how to do some and made some careless mistakes... if i fail... i only fail Fpr lor... i scared i didn't write enough points LoL...

Yap, another paper in friday afternoon 2.30 to 5.30PM. boring shit... they should've push earlier. . . . . Damn Health n Wellness, better don't be a failure subject.

Recently, in fact for the past 2 months(maybe 1), went back playing a3, can't believe i pay to play. well, at least all the people there are just. Can get to see those whiny kiasu typical Singaporean. Quite interesting though but someone i fall asleep playing cos it can be quite boring at time. hehe... gonna use some of my winning cash on this bloody game. Cant help it la just fun to play....

Well after this week, i'm a free bird! hahah.... i dunno i wanna get tied up with workin or not... damn sian leh.... next sem attachment... i dunno la... i only interested in those sales nia... the rest i don't really fancy. . .

Hows everyone's life out there? Well, i realised that some of my friends are pure dead, for no fucking reasons or maybe they just don't wanna say it. They seem to be forever stuck in the same old shit situations. No matter wad, hang on, life ain't the bad if you look at another point of view.
Fuck ya!

Me? Well, everythings cool la.... of cos there's always bound to have some shit problems coming to you. Also i'm sure most of us got certain problems which cannot be solve within few days or rather few months right? Hahaha, i'm getting old... 19 years old...50 plus more year to live.

Ever feel that you're bored of living. Not tired, BORED.

Hey, i read something from else where,

Guys CAN'T live without sex,
Girls CAN live without sex.

Is it ture? Seriously, i though girls sometimes DO need sex? i mean don't tell me you babes out there only need pure love and warmth?

ok personally, i'm 19 here and i've no sex at all. So, if guys can't live without sex, wad am i now? Just half man half woman who only think about gamin? lol... think i'm a monk or something.
Plus, not all guys are SOOOOOOOOOO fucking horny who think about sex every 5mins or start to jerk it off whenever he sees a babe. We can control, we can our own limits but we fucking love sex! WHY?! WE DON'T KNOW! ASK THE GOD GODDAMMIT

sex, sex, sex.

Guys CAN live without sex. How? Simple.
On the computer, open folder, double-click and there you go some HOT steamy video to hype up our man's hormones LoL. get high baby

after that,

go somewhere private and do wad you suppose to do with your bare hands
=x

hey, i'm being realistic here ok. . . and i'm not a pervert or wad ever shit. Just a normal topic to post thats all! AND i am not high or horny now alright.

So stop being a FUCKING stereotype ya?
or stop mugging and look out your window, it's 2006 people=)

yawnz.. there you go, a piece of art-entry.
If you're unhappy with this entry, just post a comment in my tag board
if not,
close this window and cry in the corner
or
go to your blog and whine about how hopless guys are now, WE FUCKING DON'T CARE or i should say " I "

=) hate me.

peaceout

oh no

2006-02-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

omfg

i need to type some stuff here haha... been sometime since i spam my public

lemme think of something to write about

i cant think of any shit now with my empty stomach

peaceout

Love Song

2006-02-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Hmm... Nice song.. wanna download?
http://download.yousendit.com/2FE8EE2D70E6A188

nah... 25 ppl can download nia within 7days have fun

peaceout

aiyo........

2006-02-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day tml....

Happy V day to everyone out there ya? =)

HoLA! No date for me. Like u guys fucking care. Like i fucking care Lol....

exams' next week! Looking forward to it. Call me sick. Like i give a fuck? LOL...

my experience ain't interesting to talk 'bout

btw fuck you, someone just stepped on my tail recently.

peaceout

humph

2006-02-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

Things changed,
lotsa things change.
But,
there's things that will never change....

think about it.

this blog is getting nowhere, talkin here sometimes does need brains to think after all. . . .

if i offended someone, it'd be great.

like "Fuck you bitch" =)

peaceout

my desktop

2006-02-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

urgh! it's always like this, projects simpily screw up everything include my beloved desktop zzz

My Messy Desktop

peaceout

pui

2006-02-05T11:53:00.000+08:00

why dream?
why think?
why wonder?

i hate them

peaceout

uuurgghh!!!!!

2006-02-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

URGH! i ate chocolate last night!

mama knew it and i can't fucking lied to her though i tried zzzzz....

yah sorry that i lie to you, guilty....

i know i soar throat la but i just need chocolate, it's kinda addictive espically when i'm hungry.

plus BU GUA!

sorry mom =)

peaceout

sick

2006-02-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

call me insane or what so ever

but i've gotta tell you guys,

i like having fever haha... maybe cause it's been years since i really got into one.

But it feel so, i dunno how to say la....

whenever the wind is blowing against me, there's this chilling feeling down your fucking bone, you'll feel damn tired and lethargic and FUCKING aching.... but i don't fucking care haha...

plus you sometimes get kinda giddy when walking or doing certain stuff, i don't know why but it feels like you're drunk haha... well for me la...

lastly, when you're SO fucking cold, you'd just cover yourself with only your head popping out to breath. But still, you're still shivering... so funny hor...

but i hate having sore throat. can't eat heatly food like CHOCOLATE AND BA GUA! ccb....

ah fuck dun feel like blogging liaoz

peaceout

mud mud

2006-01-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

Someone stepped on wet cement today... well leaving a slipper's print there, hell loads of laugher and 2 sian 1/2 male workers who gonna cover THAT BIG hole again...

Hey you'd never get to experience that alright? and btw that person is not me haha...

and is lion dance's song a techno song?
hhmm.... think about it...
(alright my wrong haha)

peaceout

hm?

2006-01-21T16:55:00.000+08:00

Someone wrote,
"If you think your gay life is bad... How would you like to be an egg? You only get laid once. You only get eaten once. It takes 4 minutes to get hard. Only 2 minutes to get soft. You share your box with 11 other guys. But worst of all. The only chick that ever sat on your face was your mother. So cheer up... Your gay life aint that bad"

Feeling your life damn fucked-up?

read this to console yourself, sorry ladies, not for you :)

peaceout

angel wings

2006-01-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

Is christmas coming?

I wanna a pair of Angel Wings on my back. A REAL one...

anyone?

peaceout

gggrrr

2006-01-15T16:04:00.000+08:00

Seriously, sometime i just want to punch or tear someone's face apart. For fuck sake, why people simpily look at one point of view?

By judging just one point from certain things and start assuming is just so fuck-up.

"Stereotype" -> Love it don't you?! Fucker!

Maybe i've done something too much...

Think and assume what you want, it's your fucking own business not me.

Fuck you bitch.

Shan't say too much here, there's better place for me to speak out loud

peaceout

haiz

2006-01-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

eeekk!!!!!!!

i'm scared!

tired

peaceout

think about it

2006-01-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

Do you ever try to achieve something or reach certain goals without thinking about the consequences?

Do you ever miss someone until it prevents your brain from thinking straight?

Do you ever do any crazy things over someone?

think about it

peaceout

2005

2006-01-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

As you've read my past 1 year posts. Most of the time they're filled with vulgarities like "fuck" and boredem.

2005 wasn't that actually as the matter of fact. I've seened lotsa shit happened around me including me, myself.

Of course, it's also filled with many wonderful things.

Things changed. There's things which i'm still adapting and getting used to "it"

"We change for the environment, environment will never change for us"

Of course, i've experienced something which not everyone can experienced it. Well, it is not something which you want it, you'd get it.

Anyway, 2006 is here, i really hope something nice, wonderful, awesome, brillent, extravagent(i dunno how to tell), interesting things will happen. No more shit happens thought there's always have it for you.

2006 > 2005 thats for sure. roXar! 733t! HA!

School reopens tml, welcome hell.

peaceout

2006

2006-01-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

365days has passed. 2005 is the past.

happy new year everyone

review for 2005 in next entry... if i bother to think what to type

assumptions

2005-12-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

Today's sick topic: Yang hates assumptions.

Ok, 1st thing 1st, i'm relating everything in general, so don't think that it's personal and it's NOT related to anyone.(I may be lying)

For these few years, I really hate assuming things. Assumptions can go suck my 2 balls in-between my legs. If not some pussies on some bushes or something.
Let's talk about the fucked up things about assuming things.
In my life, i've seen people assuming things which cause alot of misunderstanding and had wasted lotsa times for clearifications from one another. It just gives people a wrong idea and thoughts about everything. It's kinda sick.... i mean you don't know 100% about the situations and you start to assume things and think that you're right. You're screwed.

We got a pair of ears, and a mouth to talk. It's a gift from the god. So why not use it wisely? Just sit down and clear all your thoughts and get what you wanna. Ain't think good? Rather that stuck in one corner and think think think think think assume assume assume and hurt yourself. It just suck la....

But sometime assuming things can be good la. I mean you get to know what is right or wrong before you know the real answer. For my case, some fucked up shit happened when what i assumed came through, well as least i know i'm right.. RIGHT? Ha....

Anyway, it's up to the individual to think about which is right and which is wrong. To me, i rather not assume and just ask. Or not think about it.

Truth doesn't always hurts. I'm sure you guys know about it.

I suddenly got brain block, can't think anymore.

so,

before that

there's a banner i wanna show it to you peeps

FUCK THIS!

ok,

peaceout

haiz

2005-12-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

Don't you guys hate when unwanted feelings just come back naturally.

I mean, you're not thinking of anything. They suddenly just invade your heart and soul.

Seriously, that's what i'm experiencing right now. I just don't get it, humans.

Being emotional is nice, but being TOO emotional is such a pain in the ass.

Think i'd just left the book half open for the time being...

Now, i'm starting to feel fear. I'm feeling weak and delicate now. . .

Human affects human, that's makes the world goes round and round and round and...

Shall say no more.

peaceout

Son By Four - Purest of Pain

2005-12-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

classic song. Try to get this song. It's very nice. Hmm.. there's lotsa version this one better for me too bad i don't have the song yet... enjoy

~Purest of pain

I'm sorry didn't meant to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak...I couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender, just to hear your voice
I know there may be times I said I'm gonna live without you
Maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking...

(Baby)...give me back my fantasy
The courage that I need to learn
The air that I breathe
My world's become so ending
The days are so cold and lonely
Each night I taste...
The purest of pain

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better everyday
That I didn't hurt when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me, I feel like I’m dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking...Baby....

I'm sorry didn't meant to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak...I couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender...just to hear your voice

=) Like it?No? Or you just scroll down 'cos it's too boring to read? Haha. Anyway,

peaceout

bored

2005-12-28T03:27:00.000+08:00

right, i can't sleep so decided to wack some shit outta here.
here goes...
...
..
.
..
...
(10hrs later)
Why do people always need people?
I mean why do we always need someone to be with us? Well something alive?
and while you don't need them, you just leave them alone.
Selfishnesss, is this the word to answer my abover questions?
To me, it's gotta be a neither a yes or a fucking no.

Humans have feelings and other shit stuff like emotions. Most of the time, we just hate being alone. Some of you may just feel that you're neglected, forgotten, isolated, avoided, hated,black-listed blah blah blah. Yes i know that suck. But how bout' being alone for a short peroid of time? Lets say a week or 2? Whats wrong about it? At least you can do some soul-searching, maybe realised how fuckedup you are ever since you're born. Maybe try to think about your current situation, life many other things. It just gives you time to do whatever you desire 'cos no one is there to fuck you up or get punked. Being alone, somehow show your real you. No mask no nothing. It just simply shows you the real you. Think i'm bull crap? I don't really bother cos i think it's true.

Being with other people, alive of cos. Most people will just simply hide their true colours and refuse to let people see their real them.
Good or bad. That's the question.

Well depends. Lemme ask you something. Do you like someone who keep on tellin you HOW FUCKED UP his/her life is? I mean that person will just whine at you 24/7 when it's just none of your business? Keep asking you lotsa questions and ask you to do him/her a favour like many times. Alright, you may be thinking "Friends ma,friends need to share their problems with someone." Yes, i'm agree with this sentence. I'm sure if you're just normal friends you won't do it right? As for close friends or even more than friends.. Yes i will but there's always a limit.

So, if you're just a mere friend with that person. Will you just act happy? Or act as if the world is gonna fall? 1option for me. Feels like they don't deserve to know about my whiny bored sad emtional stories. I'd rather make everyone happy rather than telling them everything and drown my sorrow with them. It's just so unfair.

Actually everything links. Some people hate other people cos they said that they are just "Acting" infront of other people. So conclusion, "They suck, they're not showing their ture colours" like wtf?! I mean you just judge a book by it's cover. If you fucking don't know that person well, please don't fucking assume things. Oh yah i hate assumptions...

People do things for a reason. Some logical examples. Why go to the toliet? 'Cos they wanna pee, shit, change pad or maybe even some hot exciting public sex. Same reson why some people hide their ture feelings and char, cos they dun wanna people to know for some shit reasons.

Ok, i know not all situations are always like this. Some fuckers are just simply acting to get people's sympathy, trust and other sorts of attentions. Conclusion for these people, "Fuck off from this world, go back your mom's pussy and hide while we're trying to burn you alive"

SHIT, i crapped too much... i'm tired to crap anymore. Suddenly i've so much things to say. Bah forget it, no one understands them

peaceout

My life

2005-12-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Alright, time to type some whiny crap here, been sometime since i talked about my life. Blah blah blah...

Yes, lotsa things happened for the past few days? Weeks? No, months. Things that should be told lloooonnnggg ago, yet i dragged till now, blah blah blah. And many many other stuffs. Sorry people, can't spill any shit out, maybe some urine will do. Ha... well just feel that they're not worth to know about by everyone. Nothing good sharring about. Well, some of you guys may know whats going on with my recent life. So, i really wanna you all to SHUT YOR MOUTH and don't talk about it unless I'M WITH YOU! Hahaha, just a GENTLE reminder. =)

Christmas day just passed! Owww... forgotten type an entry to greet you guys, sorry bout' that.
Maybe i'd say it now,
"Merry Merry Belated Christmas Day to you peeps out there! :)"
Well, christmas eve and yesterday was hella busy, fucked-up, kinda happy and many many emotions and feelings.

Let us focus on my fucked up and insane event
____
It was christmas eve. In the afternoon was busying preparing something for someone. Thought that i'd be alone for the entire day but NOPE! i wasn't alone. Meet seok at night for dinner at the airport, woot woot those air stewardess were SSOOO fucking hot! Yes i saw some. So whao baby... Yah after that walked around tenpenis mall before headin home.

Then i was at home, rotting till about 11 plus? When i called yao whether i could meet him or something. And blah blah blah, i ended up at kelvin's house where it's located just below yao's house. Haha, all my sec school doods were there. Not surprised to see cans of beer, vodka and couple bottle of wine. Yea, gonna have a drinking session soon LoL...

Yada, yada, yada, play some games and got engaged in a man's talk. You know BGR, sex, pussies, sausages... tacos... you know everything under the sun la... and i realised that i ended up drinking 4-5 cups of vodka plus coke. Seriously, i don't like the taste of vodka. If you ask me to choose beer or vodka, my choice will go to beer. Yah, i started to get light headed. Woo Woo, well only god knows why, i continued to drink... erm... yah beer... took a can, CHEERS with my doods, talk talk sing sing whine whine. Oh btw we were sitting outside the playground haha...

Suddenly, i saw that fucked-up yao runnin around and around. I was like WTF you're to hyper. Then i was told he glupped down 2-3 mouthful of PURE vodka. Seriously, he rocks but dumb and stupid at the same time. Yao, if you reading this, i'm pretty sure you're feeling kinda sick now drinking pure vodka LoL... Ok, he's offically high... as for me, i head to the fridge and get 2 cans of beer. Before that, i stole and drank 1 cup of my friend's wine. Don't know what i did that for.

Drink drink drink, with all the thoughts and emtions invaded me, yes i started to feel emotional. As for yao, he's a basturd. When i tried to grab hold of him to stop running, THAT FUCKER BITE MY RIGHT HAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It hurts after he bite for for a few secs. Screw those alcohol in my body, my reactions were too slow and i was left helplessly bitten by him. And the marks were left there for one day. FUCK YOU!

After that, i flooded my stomach with another 2 cans of beer. And Woot! After sometime, i was drunk! Fucked up time... i'm sure you peeps saw some shit drunkard in some TV drama shows. Yes, i was like them. Can't even walk straight. Thanks ann kok and geinkang for sending me home. Yes i know i spilled any "shit"(words) out Haha.. Sebas too, he got high and he said the person this this this that that that. So woot manz...

and right, i reached my side-gate. I don't know why, i took my ez-link card instead of my gate-pass. Well think that guard knew that i was high, he let me in. How kind, love ya. Instead of walking home, i head to the fitness corner and lay down there. And something happened which i can't revealed here...

can't reveal anything much till here, yes i puked for the 1st time and the longest hangover i ever get. Worth experienced, but the feeling is VERY FUCKED UP and i can fucking swear you'd hate the end effects.

and someone shed his tears after i left. hmmm.... be strong dood. there's maybe guys present then, so happy guessing/wonderin
__________
Christmas day!
hmmm.... yea....
__________

Yao, i'm sure you'd love your FHM and Maxium(forget how to spell) Haha....

kinda long post huh... i hope i won't get that drunk in the future.... god bless.

merry christmas to everyone once again.

PS: Thank you =)

peaceout

yah

2005-12-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

stay tune. Long entry ahead.. lemme think what to and what not to type haha...

the soon had just ended =)

peaceout

cecilia - xin yu xing yuan

2005-12-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

love chinese don't you?

read this, take this, listen this

peaceout

soon

2005-12-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

...Soon...

Just One Last Time

...Soon...

Peaceout

kelly clarkson - because of you

2005-12-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

~ Cause' of you

I will not make

The same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break

The way you did, you fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh, every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

peaceout

HA!

2005-12-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.

Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,

Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,

And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.

Just smile back...

It's too late dad, you made the choice

peaceout

think about it

2005-12-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

...think think think think think...

If it works? Good la

If it fails? Too bad la

If it's not gonna happen? Bullshit, it'd happen

Hey, nth about unreachable girl or something yea? Haha...

Just some thoughts about certain things, wondering how the outcome will be like.

Hmmm... bad day...

Neh neh neh, not gonna share to you guys, neh neh neh

Heheheh HA!

peaceout

Dido - White flag

2005-12-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

i'm good at digging old songs...

here's another what-can-i-say song to you all...

~White flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'It's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

-
Coincidience...

Peaceout

intake

2005-12-17T13:28:00.000+08:00

mama just nagged at me for cooking instant noodle during midnight...

come and think bout it, i ate alot yesterday

lets see, b4 i go sch, i get a bowl of fried rice, almost even went to ep and have a bowl of jap beef rice, 1 miso soup and 1 ice milo. At night, i ate cuttle fish plus vege plus bee hoon, then ate 2 slice of chocolate cake, then some biscuits then at night instant noodles plus egg.

Woot.. fat fat...

thats all...

to someone i care for : get well maybe you're completely fine when you're readin this =)

peaceout

hahahaha

2005-12-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

just wanna post something before i go to bed.
as usual term test is coming, i'm never ready.

I just realised something. If i do not continue further studies, i'd only have less than a year of my study life. That's kinda cool yet sick and wicked. Just fucking think that time really flies.

"We don't rush time, time rushes us"

I created this sick quote in sch while crappin with victor and azuan sometime in school.

-
Alright, my brain is thinkin of something right now, kinda inconvinent to write it down here,
so , thats all for this so-call-lovesick-boring-sonuvabitch-blog LoLz. Ain't that corny?

-
Oh before i fuck myself off, somethin i wanna show you peeps

My wishes this year are only a few:
1)Nice appartment
2)The job on the nightclub i´ve been promissed
3)A superdelifragilexplodelicious pretty girl that i get no feelings for

look at option 3, guys imagine you can just bang your dream girl whenever you want and just fuck her off whenever you're sick and tired of her.

Just treat her like a substitute or somethin, ain't that cool? Haha... just bang and leave... hmm...
Alright i'm gonna offend some strangers who are still a virgin after 50 years(maybe 60? 70?) of wasting these world's resources.

Oh and those people who just simply pissed or hate me, these is something special for you
..
read between the lines. HA!... can't think of anything obvious...
aAhh... how about fuck off?

Haha, chill people i'ma outta this lighted screen...

peaceout

Madison Avenue - Don't Call Me Baby Lyrics

2005-12-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Dig up song!!!!

Very very old song... love classics

~Madison Avenue - Don't Call Me Baby

You and me, we have an opportunity
And we could make it something really cool
But you, you think I'm not that kind of girl
I'm here to tell you baby, I know how to rock your world

Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood

Dont' call me baby
You got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong t o you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby

Behind my smile is my IQ
I must admit, this does not sit, with the likes of you
You're really sweet
Mmm, you're really nice
But didn't mama ever tell you not to play with fire?

---

HmMm... so erm... Hmm.. nevermind
=(
peaceout

The myth Ost

2005-12-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

The Myth Movie OST

nice lyrics very nice...

~Endless love

haha

2005-12-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

Sorry peeps, seriously there's nothing interesting to write about now...

simply nothing to wrong...

Ok Ok, I've another blog(personal) so most of my feelings are being thrown over there...

Sorry but some shit things can't reveal here... afterall it's a fucking public blog with normal people like you....

Maybe i've post some nice lyrics here sometime yea? =)

Ok some boring - interesting neeooowss...

I just bought a creative zen 20gb for 299 with ade(she bought a neeon)

yes yes old model but i'm eyeing the 20gb. So those people who think it's suck, please keep it to yourself or fuck off =). If you have a better one, just fucking show me yea? I'd gladly smash them =)

Errmm.. nothing interesting...

-
Oh yah,

you know childern,

ignorance is bliss RIGHT? Fucking right?!?!?!?!??!?!?

i mean it's sooooo fucking true....

but you know whats the side effect?

It hurts! Haha... well, most of the time...

-
And YAH! Those people out there wondering i'm fucking attached or not?

here's the one fucking answer "NO!!"

happy?

so now, you people can just FUCK OFF and have some fun with your own life yea?

-
Dummies for gossip people,

Gossip is nice, but becareful of spreaders =)

Fuck yah!

PS: Hope i don't offend anyone. At least it's something new here right? At least i can get to say fuck here HhahAHhahahhaha......

peaceout

hee...

2005-12-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

so how am i doin?

cool?

Haaa..... If this is what it takes... i don't give a ssshhhiiaatttttt....

Yah yah people, i'd be bloggin my so call life soon..... just stop whinin

peaceout

break

2005-12-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

i'm out here for the time being...

life suck?

haha...

seeing is believing

ssh...

chill people

peaceout

mmeehh...

2005-12-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

i'm quietly waiting...

so are we gonna continue the mind game anytime soon?

haha...

i care for you

peaceout

ha!

2005-12-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

For all the years that I've known you baby

I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting

so cold

(didn't you say)

If there's a problem we should work it out

So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

(tell me)

Ok I know I was late again

I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan

But why are you making this drag on so long

(i wanna know)

I'm sick and tired of this silly games

(silly games)

Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame

It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes

But never thought that things would turn out this way

Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

(I see it all so clearly)

Me at the door with you inner state

(inner state)

Giving my reasons but as you look away

I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Don't say those words it's so hard

They turn my whole world upside down

Girl you caught me completely off guard

On the night you said to me

I just don't love you more

. . .

Such coincidence, just when i was thinking about this song, you got it. How nice.

Nice song, nice lyircs, the song which can make me repeated at least ten times. Kinda cool huh.

No matter what the turth is, i just wanna hear it from you.

The truth is either good or bad. I'm cool

Everything is done for a reason and i'm sure there's one for this too(maybe)

Reveal too much things here is bad...

peaceout

fuck up

2005-12-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

FUCK!

this week is a FUCKED UP week...
i swear, it's really really fucked up...

not only i'm fucked up, but others whom i know...

my sis and someone i know....

not only tears i could see, i could feel hatred, sorrow, loneliness, all those negative feelings...

i mean how much worst can it be? Life suck! How you wanna make it more worst...?

God, time to go to bed and stop playing on human dolls...

Sometimes, i feel that being the bad guy is much more better than being an angel... i mean who cares about angel.

It's either they feel miserable or got taken for granted without noticing it.

Ignorance is ssoooo fucking bliss... pocess it with me now...

Yes, i'm not happy now or sad... but angry... for no reason...

i'm so fucking tired for this week, hoping that next week will be better though i think it's gonna be a sucky week anyway.

I'd adept... i'm screwed enough, so doesn't matter if things went so fucking wrong or worst.

I'd just smoke through my days...

Are guys that bad? Please stay away from me then...

Sometimes alcohol is quite effective, it fucking just make your balls grow bigger to do more daring shit stuffs

Fuck off

peaceout

wahahha

2005-12-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

anger rush...

2005-12-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

well...

2005-12-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

haiz haiz haiz

2005-12-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

haiz.........

2005-12-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

=)

2005-11-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

urgh

2005-11-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

haiz

2005-11-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

urrgggghhhhhhhhhhhh.........

2005-11-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

i miss you

2005-11-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

i'm sorry

2005-11-27T12:50:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

maple

2005-11-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

Maple~

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts

I listen respectfully to my mood, which has already been quiet for a long time

Clear and transparent

Just like the beautiful scenery

It's always only clear when seeing it in my memory

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?

I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth

The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time

Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts

I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn

The aurora plunders the edge of the sky

The south wind brushes past, thinking of your appearance

I take love and burn it into fallen leaves

Yet I can't get back that familiar face

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts

Why must retrieving be hurried before autumn comes?

Loving you passing through time

Two rows of tears from the end of autumn

Let love permeate through the ground

All I want is you to be by my side

The graceful red rain in between the mountainside

Withering with the north wind

I lightly swing the wind chimes

I want

To awaken the love that has been deserted

Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground

Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

nice words...

peaceout

haiz

2005-11-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

wee

2005-11-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i've seriously drawn something...

well, i just drawn 5 real objects
scissors
pen
my key + key chain(lapras LoL)
my optical mouse
my handphone

though i think it's not that good but still i can feel the sastisfaction...

maybe cos i didn't drawn for a long time so my expectations arn't that high too =)

projects are fking piling up... i hate my H & W tut teacher who is also my lec... just can't stand her sometimes... she's...... i don't know different from other lecturers... someone whom i've problems crapping with Lol

thats that peaceout

Simple Plan -Untitled

2005-11-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

peaceout

urgh

2005-11-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

well, school really fuck me up... alot...

Screw all projects and stuff... why can't we just know all the theories, take tests and exams and fuck us off?

Urgh... just simply hate projects.... just dun like it... not my grp members Lol....
troublesome....
wish i have a easy life....

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anyway, went out with yao and eeling today went tm see chiobus and have pasta for dinner...

nth much after that went eeling's house to hog her new computer for awhile.

after that me and yao went home...

i've gotta say that eeling's mom is very very polite... she's not those kind of typical mother in SG. Aiya feels like she can understand us more. Well she still can't beat my mom though =)

tml going toa payoh for project meeting... can't escape..

hope i can wake up tml... thats what i hope....

haiz.

Initial D OST– Gloves to Ali

2005-11-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

I float like a butterfly, sting like a bee
Keys to the ignition are like gloves to Ali
2 & fro, water in the sea, the sunrise (twilight)
Is my peace

I ride the distance, nature in me
Nirvana coming through, with my delivery
2 & fro, mountains and sea, the twilight sets me free

nice cute lil lyrics!

peaceout

whao

2005-11-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

-Not for you-

heh

2005-11-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

another boring day, not totally bored though...

was outside the entire day, very tired seriously tired...

when will my mind ever stop workin! Drained...

Got macdonald's for dinner! Big mac meal! There goes my 6$ LoL...

nth to much to say to you guys for now.... maybe tml

peaceout

dream

2005-11-14T19:38:00.000+08:00

Once again, the skin from the feet start to peel again due to the friction when i was playing basketball. There's one guy approached me for 1 on 1. Well he was that guy who got challenged by that china guy. He's not bad though but i won haha. He got great potential la, know how to dribble well, do some AND 1 style and shooting also not bad.

Well, overall, I SUCK! Serious! My wrist just suck haha.... too tired liaoz.

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I realised that TP library was a great place to sleep! Fucking good place lor! I was doing research on FPQAP until i fell asleep haha, think i snored abit hoho... then while waiting for rac's reply, i fall asleep again.... wanted to back went to sleep. But i feel that my bed is nicer so i went back home bt instead of sleeping, i played ball. Silly me...

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Last night, I've got some bad dream, once again, i woke up pespiring and was very thirsty. What i dreamt? I dun wanna tell here and to everyone? Ask me personally... maybe i'd satisfy your curiousity.

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it's getting stronger and stronger... i always felt it when you're gone.

Meh....

thats all

peaceout

Chen Da Wei - Till the end

2005-11-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

Till the end~

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night

I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share

*
In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there in no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see that you're the one till the end

All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

(Repeat*)

We'll always be till the end

nice lyrics! very nice! i love this song... i've been wanting it to be in my com and finally it is haha!!!

thats all!

peaceout

raya raya

2005-11-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

ade Jh elieen clement and me went to azuan's house. Cos its hari raya! Haha... went there to have lunch. His parents are so polite to us. I was quite shy though no idea why, the more polite they are, the more i'd get shy and show more respect to them.

The lunch was good although personally i'm not very into malay food.

The randang mutton was awesome! They taste so damn good, i think me and clement ate the most amount of mutton. The chicken was ok, maybe cos i dun like the spicy taste.

Overall the lunch was good, i'd like to thank his parents once again for the great lunch and oh also those heaty snacks which will give me sore throat in no time, they just taste SSOOO good espically the pineapple tart haha. Oh also the "green pow" haha...

then me and ade took bus 9 went home then i saw my aunt on my way home. She asked me why i so tanned. HAHAHaHHAHA!!! I AM tanned!!! Hehehe, compliment!

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Have fun!

peaceout

yawnz....

2005-11-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

got interrupted when i was dreaming about japanese food, i was eating some salty yet yummy fried lotus root. haha. was pissed that there's no soya sauce... i also say one one carry a bucket of miso soup, just for himself to drink! Urgh sick, well thats all i remember.

going to have dinner with my grandmother, sometimes i feel very sian. I know it's very very god damn disrepectful to say this, but its sian la. Very hard to communicate, she only speak teochew and alittle abit of chinese but i only can speak english and chinese. But she always use teochew instead of chinese urgh.

Well, i repect her la... haha she's also the one who created me... dumb me.

Ok dinner time... boring... no positive thinkin! yesh! Yeah!! Dinner with grand mama!

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i miss you babe

hmmm.. hhmmm...

peaceout

Everclear - Wonderful

2005-11-12T16:56:00.000+08:00

Before i hit the bed, i wanna post my all time favourite song..

kinda old song but hey, as long as it's nice, just listen to it!

Everclear - Wonderful

"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so bigI just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so bigI just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to beSome days
I hate everythingI hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

haha

2005-11-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

no sch today, yet still have to do back to sch for some prog meeting...

after that hang out abit with rac then met yao and eeling then chill out with them until now...

One good shit by yao. If you guys need protection, wear condoms, cos it gives you 97% protection. Think thats the protection kit ever...

thats all about it

i felt that i've been kinda "sick" "insane "problematic" and stuff... kinda wicked...

kinda stupid too, so, i'd just cherish what i have now...

other things don't care...

enjoy the moment

weee... think my heck care attitude is back!

peaceout

meh...

2005-11-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

whao, what a day haha...

haha, hahahahhaa...

yea, i've nth to say...

tell me what you gonna do,

i'm out

=)

just me what you think

=)

peaceout

OMG!

2005-11-09T18:44:00.000+08:00

Last night was crazy, i never wanna sleep early again...

that dreamt was not a good one... its something bad. Though i can't recall what it was all about but i can feel that its nothing good at all. All i can remember was your face, not a smiling one.

I suddenly woke up, perspiring. It was a very long dream. I really at my brain when it comes to this. Its just can't fuck care it.

Night breeze was nice, i sit on the couch thinking why the fuck am i like this.

But i can't think of any answers, so i went to bed trying not to dream the same old thing...

and i didn't...

peaceout

URGH

2005-11-09T13:38:00.000+08:00

man, don't know what really in my mind...

somehow i feel that i'm lost... i'm not that heartless as i thought i've become

some actions from her can really drive me insane... i don't this to happen but think its just unaviodable.

Sometimes, i think she's happy with what she has it now and i think thats good enough for me...

There's lots of things i will say but i just can't describe it and i dun wanna anyone to know.

Edit: Reason: I was Insane just now

peaceout

Ps: Dun ask me anything people.

haiz

2005-11-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

NB my timetable still very fucked up, only got one elective very very fucked up...

Seriously i dun wanna take PBPN. But i heard from my friend that the teacher told him that Health & Wellness is full so there is a high risk that i'll end up in PBPN...

CHAO CHEE BYE! Fucked up system! i choose all the 3 electives and it fucking give me 1 only...

its kinda sick and wicked man! why got School system like this one? well sometimes bad shit happens...

1st day of sch is fuckin slack nth one.... well the coming weeks will be more stressed up...

anyway nth much to crap about... just preparing to meet some new friends thats all haha...

and hope i can get the electives i wanted...

thats all

peaceout

cant be that true

2005-11-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

Was browsing my friends' blog(ade) and i came across a personality shit test blah blah blah...

I dun always believe in such test but hey, no harm giving it a shot.

This is wad i got

You are Red Panther, and unlike your smart outlooks, you talk slowly.

You are amiable, cheerful and open-hearted person.

But you can be shy when meeting new people, and find it difficult to make conversation with someone who you have met for the first time.

Unexpectedly from your smart looks, you possess great power inside.

You would put in great effort to go ahead of the times, and be successful.

You sometimes can have no sense of reality, and when this tune in with your looks, it brings out emotional sensitivity and sharp artistic sense within you.

Because you tend to lack perseverance and endurance, you may easily give up work that you had started.

Although you look as though you can make up your mind quickly, in reality, you tend to ponder a lot.

You can not make decisions or act with confidence.But you can reflect back at your weakness and tries to over come that.

This attitude gets you the trust and affinity of the people around you.

You don't lose hope, and tries to progress.

But you can be easily affected by your mood, and therefore should try to be consistent with your achievements.

Was kind surprised cos most of them are fucking chee bye ture!

Good shit!

check it out if u wanna : http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

man... wonder how they came out with it

peaceout

man...

2005-11-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

School starting tomorrow...

Boring!!! Well, i'd be in a different class liaoz can get to meet new friends hehe...

Of course i'm still in a holiday mood. Doubt i can get ride of it soon... gimme 1 month

Life will never be the same, i have to get used of certain things... so people i need all your luck

Well, thats all i wanna blog for now. I'm tired... i've not recover from last night drinking party haha...

Screw hang over

peaceout

hah...

2005-11-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

Saturday night was great...

read it...

met seok hui for dinner in EP, ordered a grilled beef at the food court. Theres a malay lady at the counter, she asked me whether my beef wants to be medium or well done 3 times! 3 times! I think she got some short term memory or something cant believe it... Afterward, walked at the boring mall for awhile and went to meet yao wei and eeling.

After sending both girls home, i went to yao's hse. Have to admit that his "new" house is damn nice after renovation! After some hot GAY action in his room.... shit, no, after watching some funny clips in yao's room(yah) we went to fisherman village.

Gein kang, kelvin, yao wei, joel and me were there. We ordered 5 jugs of Carlsberg(dunno how to spell) 1jug = 4 1/2 mug

so i think i drank bout 5 mugs... not that i drink very fast la. Cos the waiter always refill my cup 1st LoL... Its a beautiful night, if theres not fucking thai people out there shouting, the night will be even better. Drink drink drink, talk talk talk talk, suddenly i feel high. Thats it i must drink more haha... after sometime yao told me he was kinda high too. Fun fun!

Cos we didn't have much cash with us, we cant order more alcohol. So we decided to go 7-11 to buy more. We're wasted Lol. Me joel and yao were high, Gk and kel still awake. Cant remember wad we did but i remember i sang quite loudly haha... oh yah yao piggy bag-ed me and i fall down, my ass kinda hurts now...still well its fun! Being light headed is hell lotsa fun with the doods u like to be with.

At 7-11, i drank other can of anchor(forget how to spell).

For some dumb mother fucker who don't know, alcohol prevents the absorption of H20. So we always wanna pee! But its 2am in the morning all the FUCKING PUBLIC TOLIETS ARE CLOSED! So we have to pee among the bushes(Mr policemen we're sorry but we just can't go knocking on someone's door and ask if we can use the toliet) After some crappy shit talk, is 3am and i MUST head home. So GK joel and me shared cab. I think the uncle cannot tahan the smell of alcohol cos he kept touching his nose. Its so funny imagine he puke cos of our smell hehehe...

Yap went home and i was kinda drunk liaoz... the alcohol had taken full effect. For some reason i cant sleep... i cant even walk properly. After 30mins i bang-ed on ma bed and zZZzzZZzZzz....

I got headache now liaoz LoL, theres still alcohol in my blood stream, can feel it hehe.. i like...

My drunkard day! hehe...

But i wanna all these things to happen again. I love it plus the night is quiet, lonely and peaceful
have to thank the god that theres no police cos i didn't bring my IC along haha

PS: yao dun drink too much cos u will anyhow wack people de

peaceout

well

2005-11-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

What i wanna do now is to wank i mean play ball... but its saturday! Those lil jap, indian, ang mor and chinese kids will be hogging the court. Oh for your info, i've hit at least 10 kids' head with my basketball after it rebounded off the rim. Well the thing is they nv conplain any pain let other than crying. It seems to me tha their lil head are made of steel... maybe titanium heh.. cool huh...

I know this china guy who also plays basketball. HATE to admit it, but he much more bigger than me as for height wise... for fuck more than me a few CM nia!(Console myself). I don't know him well. But the images he's giving me now are not that good.

You see, last wednesday, i was bored. So i head to the court myself to shoot some hoops. When i reached that i noticed that he's there too with another guy who is confirm(100%) younger than me. Hate to say this but i'm taller(hehe) . So after some greetings, i started to shoot some balls la. Few mins later, i overheard their conversation(the china guy and his friend). The china guy asked that guy to play 1 on 1.

Seriously ah, i'm not quite happy with him

1st: The age gap between the 2 people( china guy is 100% >17years old)
2nd: Height!!!!!!!!! mount everest vs bukit timah hill
3rd: Skill wise of cos china win la
4th: I'm there and he nv ask me to challenge him!!! CHEE BYE!

its not that i'm petty la, but if there's a better opponent out there for you, of cos u will choose him cos got more fight and kick right?

NB choose a kid rather than me, wrong choice dood.

Oh yah, the match is like mike tyson vs a kid.... cant stand it.

Well, let bygones be bygones. I decided to shoot 3 pt. Well, unexpectedly he started to shoot too. HAH! sorry but my shooting skills is better than his... grinzzzzz.... gua gua gua try harder next time.

Brrroomm... then it started to drizzel. So i decided to head back home cos i've to attend some dinner anyway. Yah i walked passed him and say good bye but that CHINA GUY ignored me. That piece of lard. Lets just assume that he didn't noticed me yea? But i remembered that i said quite loud leh... no reason why he cant hear me... heck.

Nevertheless, i love my condo people espically those japs family and their lil kids and of cos bikini babes!

thats all... tired to type anymore....

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Can't describe how i feel now. Don't even know how i feel now.

i'm such a cunt mmmeehhh...

peaceout

thats that

2005-11-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

got my timetable today.

heres my story:
8.30am stomach ache, went to the bath room twice, after some thoughts, went back to sleep > 12pm woke up, lotsa missed calls>on the com>log into tp website>see my timetable> there goes my silence, I WAS SO FUCKING HAPPY THAT I NEED NOT TO GO SCH ON WED and MONDAY 1 hr LEC NIA! Oh ya!

BUT something is not right.... so i decided to check others and holy fuck, i realised that i missed 2 electives... Nb chee bye...

called back all my friends... all congrats me that my timetable is bloody slack. Ah well hello i missed out 2 subjects?

went tp, cant find keng bang and have to send him an email tml cos the fucking tp email is not working!

thats all

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i'm touched for everything you've done for me....

what can i say now? Apparently, its too late to say now... :)

If the truth was spoken earlier, things will be much different...

anyway move on!

dunno wads gonna happen next... maybe i'd die hehe....

peaceout

yawnz

2005-11-04T02:35:00.000+08:00

yawnz... meh... i'm bored man!

i needa change

good night

peaceout